Still no net

technically my dorm had internet installed yesterday but guess who has the one pc that will not access it. i dont know why because kim can get to my internet in my room and in hers but i cant get to it in either. i think maybe the plug jack or something in my pc got damaged but its hard to really convince myself of that because i used ethernet in the last dorm too and it worked just fine.

in this dorm however, it wont work at all.

so yeah, wait a little longer while i try to figure out this problem. who knows it could be fixed without me doing anything and before i even get home and then i`ll be great. but at the moment, i am not sure so i wanted to let you all know that it might be a while. might. might not.

and i`m finally healing up from my long bout with some kind of japanese flu. so i may try to write something more tomorrow.

So this is the update

i failed one test, passed the other of the two we`ve had so far. I managed to convince my teachers that i am studious and have even managed to convince myself that i really can be that way. i really try to study as often as possible and since i have no internet, i usually only have that to do. but recently i have been sick so my grades slipped a litte and hence the failed test but i am going to study really hard for the make up exam. this weekend i will try to. because as i was writing the above sentence i just remembered that i have a kanji test tomorrow too. and a intonation quiz.

i got the package mom and thanks for everything, sara the movie is awesome i know you knew before you sent it but just in case you didnt i totally love it.

i have not weighed myself or measured in about a month but my classmate told me that i look thinner in the recent week, i blame it on not being able to eat anything. but i dont know.

i think i have this mental block or something. i know i am a lot thinner than i was and i can see it in reflections and stuff but when i move or dress or what have you i do it as a fat person. i take paths through wider spaces and i dont try to squeeze around people even if now i could. its odd, and though i want to get even thinner, i think it`ll just get more odd.

anyways, that`s what i`ve been thinking. i gotta go. love you all.
me