i felt poetic

For Zabe

I missed you today
Not because I couldn’t see you
Not because I wanted to
But I missed you
In the way that astronomers miss the stars
Missing in the way that takes their very breath
Because they want to be there
Want to be a star
But they have two left feet and can’t glow

I missed you today
In the way that veterans miss WWII
Because they were vital then
And the world changed from what they did
But the war is gone and social security doesn’t feed your dreams

I missed you today,
In the way that hairstylists miss the fifties
Because things were simpler then, they made sense
And the world was united with hairspray
But cosmetology’s become a refined skill and I don’t have the talent

I missed you today,
Like a hunter misses his prey
Because you scampered ahead of me
But I am lost without you to follow

And miss you now,
Like a lonely girl misses her best friend
Because the world is changing
But the only person to make me grow was you

I love you.

okay that was the really good one, i think. but i mean this one just as much. so i hope you believe me when you read it.

For the mommies (Con Queso, he-do, and Odie)

Sometimes I think you’re blind
And stupid
Because sometimes when I look at you,
You shine
There’s a light in your eyes
And you’re warm and love squishes out of you
Like water from a sponge
And I’m in awe of this beautiful radiant woman
And how I could possibly be related
And feel so blessed and surpassed at the same time

So I’m sure you must be stupid,
Because there’s not a piece of you that’s not beautiful to me
There’s not one moment, not a breath,
When I see the person you see in the mirror
How can a face so vibrant worry about wrinkles?
How can a smile so intoxicating worry about her teeth?
How can a heart so pure fret over what she eats?

I’d like to call you stupid once more
But from the moment I pictured you in my mind
I’ve known it’s not true.
So I’ll settle on blind.