Okay, so this will be a short update because I don’t have that much time this morning and I have so much to do because I overslept. For the last couple of days I’ve been exhausted and so I haven’t written, sorry. Yesterday was an amazing day.
I felt like I looked good, everyone I knew wanted to hang around me, things kinda fell into place, I felt like I understood my class and I didn’t make a fool out of myself for the first time, and the few bad things that happened didn’t seem to stick. Yeah, it was one of those days.
But on a more academic note, I told you all before I was a trial with level 2. it turns out that to be in a certain level in KCP, all of your skills have to be equal. Speaking, kanji, grammar, reading aloud, speed, intonation, all of it. And so it turns out that I was on trial between level 1 and 2. the most beginner levels. Yesterday was the day that they decided where to put me for good. They said that I have a lot of skill but my kanji, my grammar, and the fact that I don’t think in Japanese are hindering me. So they allowed me to be in 2 on the condition that I study for an extra hour with a teacher everyday.
This morning I’m supposed to go to an English support lesson, which means that the teacher can speak English so all of my questions can be answered. But twice a week I meet with my teacher and she’s going to go over my notes to make sure they’re up to par.
I’m not kidding when I say that I’ve never studied in my life. I never had to. So this whole having to study for like 3 hours at night and all day at school and the mornings and now extra lessons. It’s killing me. Not really, I know that in the end I will be so much better because of it but it’s still frustrating.
Oh, and all of the teachers, the administrative staff, and the dorm people seem to really like me. Not a shock I guess but they keep telling me how kind I am and what a strong spirit I have and how cheerful I always am. It’s nice but at the same time kinda sad. Why should I get recognized for being a good human just because other people aren’t? shouldn’t being a good decent person be commonplace? Shouldn’t be happy and cheerful be normal?
And I tried uploading those karaoke videos last night but I swear that this site is being stubborn. It takes so much time to upload anything. Time I never have. But today is Friday so I’ll try again after school. I’m not going out tonight because I have culture class at 9am tomorrow. So there’s no point.
and i know that i haven't really emailed anyone lately, i'm really sorry. i mean i knew i'd be busy but really i always am. i rarely have enough time to write on this thing but i am trying. i know that later i'll enjoy reading these and remembering all of my struggles and triumphs. yet that doesn't make it anymore difficult.
well i really do have to go, if i wait any longer the breakfast will close and i'll have to spend more money. and most of you know how cheap i am, so bye! wish me luck in my tutoring session.
Anyhow I hope this satisfies you for now. Love you,
me
1 comment:
Jess, noting that you are a cheerful person is a good thing. And its not something normal for people that are in a different country! You're doing amazing, and that makes me feel better.
I hope that you keep up with your studies, it sounds like a lot of work. But I know you can do!
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